October has finished and I’m happy to say my midterms for the most part are done. I have one more to go but it’s a second midterm for a class I’m already not doing the best in which stresses me out a bit. I have had the meltdowns where I don’t know if this is what I should be doing with my life if I’m not good at it. Part of me says it’s because it’s second year and I’m not as prepared as I thought I was and part of me thinks its because I’m not as smart as I think I am. Both of these facts terrify me to death and I’m trying to push them to the back of my head. This month ahead doesn’t look like school is going to slow down any. I’ve got papers, presentations, tournaments and a formal to go to (which ps I’m stoked for).
But I’ve had some fun these past couple weeks despite the stress. I got to see my best friend for the first time in a couple of months. Although we didn’t get to have a ton of time together we got some homework done, slurped back a couple of slushies and pigged out on sour candies. I also got to dye the under part of my hair purple this week! I’ve always wanted purple hair and I’ve never dyed my hair before so this is mildly exicting for me. Oh and last but not least, I got to spend a fair bit of time with my boyfriend. It seems like both of our lives get chaotic at the worse possible times and most of our dates have been us laying around watching movies but I feel like it’s just what we both need and I’m beyond completely happy with where things are with us.
The weeks ahead of me are going to be crazy and I’ll try to write a bit and hopefully get some pictures from formal!