Archive | October 2010

Happiness :)

My weeks can seem like they’re really stressful especially this time of year.  It seems lately all I’ve been doing is studying for midterms, writing midterms, doing labs, and finishing assignments.  Sometimes I forget what it’s like to take a break and sit back and relax and just enjoy a day.  Last night was a chance for me to go out with my good friends and I enjoyed every minute of it.  We went to the rainforest cafe for my friends birthday dinner. Although the restaurant is a SUPER pricey it was worth every penny to get a volcano (brownies with icecream in the middle) and the frog slushie cups we got to keep at the end!    When we headed back to residence at the end of the night we ended up buying a cosmo (3 guys and 3 girls) and filling out sex quizzes together.  I don’t even know why it was so entertaining and fun but it was, perhaps it was because we learned so much about each other we’d never say otherwise.

I think my favourite part of the night was curling up with him to go to sleep though.  I don’t know why I can sleep better with my boyfriend around but I just can.  It’s not like my bed is huge or anything but it feels almost empty when he’s not in it or like something is missing (hence for the large amounts of stuffed animals and pillows).  I like where we’re headed to be honest.  It’s moving at a nice natural pace and I feel like we can talk about just about anything.  It’s nice to have the feeling of someone who’s willing to listen to you and is interested in what you have to say and it’s amazing to learn so much about someone else as well.  I didn’t see myself having a boyfriend at this time but somehow it’s all worked out for the best and I don’t think I can imagine what it’d be like to not know him even.

I don’t know what it is right now but I have this feeling of amazing inside me I don’t want to go away anytime soon.  If my life could stay this simple and normal and enjoyable I’d be such a happy girl.



Music <3

Some nights I put on songs that inspire me and sing really loudly and convince myself that the lyrics are true.  I don’t know why music has such a powerful effect on me but it can take me from feeling like total crap to feeling better.  Tonight has just been one of those nights.

“If there’s one thing I’ve learned
It’s that we never feel the heat until we get burned.
Sometimes we try so hard not die sometimes we forget
To appreciate life” –Appreciation and the Bomb (The Spill Canvas).

“You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one” -Imagine (John Lennon)

“So if your mad get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
come on and talk to me now.
Hey, why you got to hide?
I get angry to
but I’m a lot like you” – I’ll Stand by You (Glee Cast Version).

“Believe the tunnel can end
believe your body can mend
Yeah I know you can make it through
’cause I believe in you.
So let’s go put up a fight
let’s go make everything alright.
Go and take a shot
go give it all you got.” -Go (Boys Like Girls).

“But it don’t really matter
when life gets that much harder
it makes you that much stronger.
Some pages turned
some bridges burned
but there were lessons learned.”-Lessons Learned (Carrie Underwood).

“You need not to climb mountain tops
You need not to cross the sea
You need not to find a cure
for everything that makes you weak
You need not to reach for the stars
when life becomes so dark
And when the wind does blow against the grain
You must follow your heart”-Against the grain (City and Colour).


Thanksgiving Weekend

I remember when I was in highschool and Thanksgiving weekend usually entailed me going to the trailer and enjoying the weekend there closing up followed by a dinner at my grandparents, now that I’ve reached university it plays out a little differently.  This year for example I ended up spending the weekend at school until yesterday afternoon because I had to bowl that morning and my mom was unable to come and pick me up until 3.  When my mom showed up to finally get me I was actually stoked to go home for the weekend, it’s not like there was a particular reason I just enjoy little things at home a lot more now that I’m gone (ie a  microwave and fridge a 10 step walk away from me at all times).

When I first arrived in town I went out for coffee with my friend Gabby.  It’s been awhile since we’ve seen each other (especially when it’s not at a party) and to say the least I was SO happy to see her.  We went to second cup where we both got drinks and cake and sat and talked for about an hour and made plans to visit each other in Toronto.  Sometimes I get so focused on being on campus that I forget that there is a huge city out there I can adventure into at any time.   After I dropped her off I ended up going out to Wal-Mart with my mom where she bought me two new Wii games (Mario Kart and another Cooking Mama game) and I helped her pick out a vest.  After that my night was consumed by studying a bit, playing wii, and facing off against my boyfriend in scrabble.

And a random side note: I don’t know why I’m so good at scrabble it’s honestly bizarre.  I ended up getting 68 points off the word sending last night due to double letter scores and the fact I used all my letters for a 50 point bonus.  It’s not even that I have a wide vocabulary I don’t think, I think it’s more of me lucking out a lot of the time.  I also tend to get those small two letter words for big points (and just a tip for all of you non scrabble nerds out there – if your ever playing and stuck with a Q without a U QI is actually a word).

Anyways, I ended up in bed about 2 am last night when both me and the boy declared that we were too tired to play anymore.  I ended up sleeping in until almost 11, which never happens in rez. Oh and as an added bonus I slept all through the night which is something I haven’t been able to do at all in residence…ever.  I woke up to my mom picking a fight with me about how my room should be cleaned and then me being grouchy for the rest of the morning because of it.  My dad ended up going to Tim Horton’s and getting me a tea which just made my mood 10 times better.  After that I showered, got dressed for my grandparents and grabbed my books so that I could study there.

But I didn’t get to study due to the fact that everyone around me was talking about dogs.  The dog whisperer, dog training classes, dog agility competitions and my personal favourite dog agility dance competitions.  It really ticked me off when my cousin whipped out a sweater to put on her dog in the already warm room.  It’s a dog not a doll – it’s completely unnecessary to dress it up especially when it’s an australian shephard and already has decently thick fur.   As if it couldn’t get any stupider my cousin then informs us that when her dog ends up in agility dance competitions (where you teach your dog a dance routine to do with you apparently) she’s going to make t-shirts for us to wear in the audience.  How exciting…not.

I think the next part that really irked me was the fact my aunt had to raise a big deal about my grandpa’s birthday.  My aunt wanted to throw him a party because he’s turning a monumental age this year. Yes, it’s awesome he’s turning 80 and yes we should definitely celebrate but it’s not like anyone has money to throw around on top of which my brother has a job where he works weird hours and I go to university out of town.  My mom picked up a really nice cake for my grandpa at a local bakery for dessert tonight and when everyone sang my grandpa happy birthday my aunt sat there silently and then made the comment “it isn’t even his birthday yet”.  I don’t know why it hit me as completely and utterly unnecessary, but it may have something to do with the fact that people have put me into the birthday blues lately (more on this later I promise).  After dessert was done my aunt quickly left and barely spoke a word to anyone as she was leaving.  We left after my mom helped my grandma with her dishes.  Oh and by the way dinner was FANTASTIC I forgot how much I miss mashed potatoes and gravy at my grandma’s!

And now it’s time for me to have a cram session so I guess I should just wrap this up (that’s what he said har har har).  I hope anyone who had their thanksgiving dinner today had an awesome one  :).


Things I’m thankful for this thanksgiving:

  • An amazing but whacked out family
  • Awesomely supportive friends
  • My fish
  • A super fun, caring, and trusting boyfriend
  • A roof over my head
  • Food on my table
  • A job for my university
  • A position on rez council
  • A (mostly!) healthy body
  • An education
  • All my 5 senses
  • Technology (this is almost embarrassing to write)

Hello World!

I think  it’s about time I started writing some things other then what I put into my live journal.  Sure it’s been great for 3 years but sometimes the past is more painful then enjoyable.  I have to look at the times friendships were ruined, the times I was stabbed in the back, and the time my heart was broken.  Perhaps this new start will actually be shared with people as oppose to keeping it a secret.

Now I guess about me.  Well if you found this more then likely you know I’m Amanda.  I don’t consider me to be an overly amazing person, or an overly unique person either so I guess you could say I’m pretty average.  I’m 18 years old but I’ll be turning 19 on the 25th of November.  My favourite colour is purple with lime green being in a close second and my favourite number is 450 – the perfect score in five pin bowling. I have two betta fish named Koopa (Red) and Durden (Purple) which actually make me stupidly happy.  I have a collection of build a bears and I also have an obsession with all things Glee. I’m originally from a small town but moved to a big city when I got accepted into the school I wanted to go to.

So it’s pretty clear that I’m still in school, but to be more specific I’m in university! I’m in my second year and I’m majoring in psychology with an emphasis in human services.  I have no idea what I want to do when I’m older but I can guarantee you it has to do with helping people.  I always thought I wanted to be a teacher but the older I get and the more unrealistic this dream is the more and more I let it go.  I live in residence in a single room on an all girls floor (not by choice on the second half) and am decently involved in my school.   Not only do I volunteer my time in residence but I also work for my school.  Through my job I have met the most AMAZING people who mean more to me then some people I’ve known forever.

My favourite things include bowling, curling, music, movies, tv shows and curling.  I competitively bowl 5 pin and I curled for my school in high school.  My favourite band varies each day but I always am a sucker for a song done on an acoustic guitar.  As far as movies go I can’t get enough of musicals (Yes I’m dorky) and comedies (specifically romantic comedies).  When it comes to TV I am OBSESSED with Glee, Dead Like Me, How I met your mother, Weeds, and Six Feet Under.  I’m just starting to get into Gilmore Girls now.

I guess that is it for now for an about me.  Hopefully I end up on here a lot more then my livejournal, I’m actually interested to see where this will be going in the future.